High and Low

I'm so lucky to get to see the Empire State Building almost every day, in many different lights.  It was green and red for Christmas, blue and white for Hanukkah, red and pink on Valentine's Day, and green and yellow after the Packers won the Super Bowl this year :)

Most nights it is classic white, and I love the lights reflecting off the clouds. If you look closely you can see a chain link fence in the foreground. The following picture was taken standing in the same place, but looking down through the fence instead of up over it:

It's so cool how there's a big empty pit right in the middle of a neighborhood full of huge buildings and skyscrapers. The dynamic range of this city is amazing: the buildings, streets, subway tunnels, and sidewalks are constantly under construction. The only constant in life is change, and I think that's why so many people are drawn to New York--it's alive!

Work Therapy

It's the busy season at the bar and restaurant where I work--time to make hay while the sun shines (and while it rains)!

I won't deny that it's great to have a source of income, but yesterday I realized that money is only part of the reason why I like having a job, and only part of why I felt so miserable when I didn't have one. For me, work is also how I learn to improve myself and my life.

I was in a stinker of a mood yesterday, grumbling to myself with some "bad mood junk" that everybody wrestles with from time to time.

But as the start of my shift approached, I realized I'd have to make a conscious decision to leave my bad attitude behind me, at least for a few hours. One thing I love about the service industry is that your daily (or nightly) income is largely under your own control. You can't control how many customers walk through the door or sit in your section, but you absolutely control your success with any given table from the moment your guests are seated. Radiating negative energy is a very effective way to repel gratuities.

Every shift I work is a reminder to shift my thoughts away from negativity. On my way to work yesterday I told myself over and over, "If you can't think of anything positive, at least stay neutral!" I wouldn't go so far as to say that idle hands are the Devil's playthings, but from experience I've learned that being too idle does make it easier for devilish (detrimental) thoughts to run rampant. I'd rather think, "ketchup, dessert menu, check" over and over and let my subconscious sort out the rest.

This freelance writing work I'm doing is also a type of therapy. It's dry as hell, but just easy enough and just lucrative enough that I keep on doing it. As a result, I'm now in the habit of writing for a couple of hours every day.

Lately I've been thinking that I could quit churning out assigned articles for a marketing company and spend a couple of hours each day writing whatever I want instead. I have a feeling that in the end the return on my time would be worth quite a bit more, but making that change represents a leap of faith. I'd have to trust myself to put in the time and effort without any external source of motivation.

I think that's what every job we have ultimately teaches us. You can (and many people do) stick with tolerable work that has a built-in discipline and reward system, but I believe the universe is constantly nudging each of us toward a more fulfilling occupation. The key to finding that fulfillment is cultivating as much faith in yourself as you have in others.

For example, I have faith that if I complete four writing assignments and send the company my invoice, I'll get paid for my work. But do I have faith in equal measure that writing for myself will pay off? Therapists always ask tough questions.